well well well

I have learned a lot this year
some of this year has been fabulous
and some of it has been absolutely terrible and heartbreaking.

i think i am ready to move on.

getting married. wow. yes please.
let's get married now.

oh. p.s. i am engaged now :)

Senior Year

the time has come. all i have to say is that this year is going to be a good one.

nervous and exciting and full of so much love.

future

the future is a scary place.
wait. is that what we are supposed to think? or is it just me? are we to prepare for it in advance or live our lives for the present? i dont know. i cant seem to make sense of all the cliches i hear around me each and every day. there has to be an answer. i know that we are to trust in the Lord no matter what our dilemma and the future is not ours to uncover. those things i know. but i dont know so many other things. maybe i never will. but is that ok... is that acceptable? because lately i have been feeling behind. like so many people know so many things that i dont know. like maybe just maybe i skipped something. i have dreams and wants and ambitions but i dont know exactly how to achieve them or if there is really any possibility of achieving them. the one thing i know is that i have a love to share this uncertain future with. at least that is comforting. we can be confused and lost together. yes. that is comforting.

maybe this is the key. there is a future full of excitement.

insanity

today was day three of a change in life.
i am working out daily and it feels like HELL
then i finish and i feel awesome!

it is so refreshing to know that i can accomplish something.
things are changing and i can (literally) feel it.

new things

here are a few of the things i have learned recently.

1. God can do anything. He can give and take away and through it all was are called to praise Him!
2. Friends are God's gift to us and I believe wholeheartedly that we are to care deeply for each one!
3. Summer truly is the best time of the year. People come out of hibernation and live again!
4. Changing some things in life is good but not always necessary for everyone.
5. There is never ever a reason to hold a grudge in your heart.
6. Having no regrets seems nearly impossible but I am trying my best!
7. Pulling off a new look only happens when someone you don't know well tells you you're pretty :)
8. Having things go your way (my way) is not always what is best.
9. I will sing praise, I will sing praise, no weapon formed against me shall remain!
10. I truly serve an Awesome and Holy God and without him our days are meaningless!
11. Eating healthy makes you feel soooo good!

cure for a headache

so here is what i was thinking.
i have the worst headache of all time right now.
i can't think of any way to make it vanish.

then it came to me. it is not plausible at all but how nice would it be if you could open a little hole in the top of your head and pour some cool water over your brains? i know that this is weird but it seems to me that it would feel fantastic! cool and refreshing and all the "gunk" that makes a head ache would be washed away and our heads would be left feeling a little watery but much less tense.

if only it were that easy.

what started it

i walked into my house to hear my roommate talking about the funniest and actually most bizzare things that they wanted to do. they are going to live like different people and with different lifestyles each week. now it seems a little snarky if you ask me, but they just want to learn about different people and how they live. on top of that they are bored with their lives and they need some excitement.

...the last part is what got me thinking...

why are people so bored these days? i mean honestly, i don't think that i feel bored often at all. then i got to thinking (more). i came up with the fact that people cannot and i mean CANNOT be content with what they have. nothing about life should make people bored but everyday you hear someone say that it is boring.

i looked through the Bible, because when i am confused there seems to be no where else to turn. what i found is that having joy and fear in the Lord is what brings contentment to our hearts. Hebrews 13:5 tells us to be content with what we have because the Lord has said that "he will never leave us nor will he forsake us"

What a joy to know that we have someone so big on our side that can help us through our struggles. I have to say that i want to commit to not express boredom because there is always something to find joy in. the simple things in life are the best as people say.

this may seem oddly brash and judgmental, but i do not have that mindset at all. my goal is to see the good in everything and find the Hope that the Lord has left for us. and let's be honest "to each his/her own" :)